I miss my husband today
to while the time away
i am eating and eating, carrots galore
when I want to eat candy, then i eat some more
Monday, February 14, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Back
Yesterday, I decided to re-commit to WW and losing weight. I've been freaking out over the stresses of law school lately, which has led me to cookies, cupcakes, cake cake, ice cream, chocolate, wendy's, french fries of all denominations, chips, etc. It's time to start eating less and better. I think it will make a difference for me. People keep telling me I look like I've lost weight, and I'm hoping anxiety has helped me worry away some of the nascent pounds, but I am too scared to weigh myself until I get a solid week of WW under my belt--or out from under my belt as the case may be.
Yesterday went well. I have a hard time on the way down to school, so I just accept that I will be eating a lot and need to allocate the rest of the day appropriately. I did this with different levels of success yesterday, but ended up resorting to salmon and veggie (no cream cheese) sushi for a low cal dinner. Tragically, it seems that the salmon was made of some sort of fish powder, like the milk we use in our food storage. It was so gross. But that means fewer calories. I ate two nectarines yesterday and a banana. I got some veggies from the sushi before I gave up on it, but I'm trying to start small and ensure that I get at least 3 servings of fruits and veggies a day.
Today was crazy. I feel really uncomfortable on an ice rink, and when the whole world is covered in a half-inch layer of ice, i get really crazy. Today is day 10 of my 10 day no-skipping challenge, so I was determined to make it to school in time for my first class. It took me a half hour to excavate my car from the ice. I tried to scrape it away, but my feet didn't have any traction on the icy road. (Even the grass that showed was covered in ice, so it was really slippery, too!). I'd try to grab onto the car to get a little stability, but that was covered in ice, too! The scariest part was going down stairs outside today. The stairs were covered in a cascade of invisible ice, but so were the railings. I ended up going down the stairs backwards like toddlers are taught to do so they don't get hurt if they fall. There were 3 very very near misses with falling down, and many other near misses. The scariest part was trying to scrape my car as a huge garbage truck comes down the street which is clogged with cars on both sides--the garbage truck literally passed about a foot and a half away from me and I was praying "please don't slip and fall under it, please don't slip and fall under it" the whole time.I especially wanted to get to school on time because I was on-call in my first class today, and everybody who's been on call this week has flaked out--either not shown up or just not been prepared. I didn't want to look like I was skipping out, too. I was a couple minutes late, but so was the professor, so everything went down okay. I was nervous about the case, since it dealt with a class action by preferred stockholders following a cash-out merger of a company--and despite reading it twice, taking notes, and reviewing it, I still didn't really understand what happened. I realized during the course of the class, that it was just a really small contractual issue--the meaning of "liquidation"--that was at issue in the case, so when I got called on I didn't look like a total idiot. All of that gasping around in the cold ice this morning did leave me a little asthmatic, and I sit on the front row, so I'm not sure that anyone behind me was able to appreciate my success on that case. They probably think I'm *gasp* shy!
I don't know if this is normal, but at night before I go to bed I fantasize about what I would be eating if calories didn't matter. Last night it was a huge chocolate-frosted glazed donut...
Yesterday went well. I have a hard time on the way down to school, so I just accept that I will be eating a lot and need to allocate the rest of the day appropriately. I did this with different levels of success yesterday, but ended up resorting to salmon and veggie (no cream cheese) sushi for a low cal dinner. Tragically, it seems that the salmon was made of some sort of fish powder, like the milk we use in our food storage. It was so gross. But that means fewer calories. I ate two nectarines yesterday and a banana. I got some veggies from the sushi before I gave up on it, but I'm trying to start small and ensure that I get at least 3 servings of fruits and veggies a day.
Today was crazy. I feel really uncomfortable on an ice rink, and when the whole world is covered in a half-inch layer of ice, i get really crazy. Today is day 10 of my 10 day no-skipping challenge, so I was determined to make it to school in time for my first class. It took me a half hour to excavate my car from the ice. I tried to scrape it away, but my feet didn't have any traction on the icy road. (Even the grass that showed was covered in ice, so it was really slippery, too!). I'd try to grab onto the car to get a little stability, but that was covered in ice, too! The scariest part was going down stairs outside today. The stairs were covered in a cascade of invisible ice, but so were the railings. I ended up going down the stairs backwards like toddlers are taught to do so they don't get hurt if they fall. There were 3 very very near misses with falling down, and many other near misses. The scariest part was trying to scrape my car as a huge garbage truck comes down the street which is clogged with cars on both sides--the garbage truck literally passed about a foot and a half away from me and I was praying "please don't slip and fall under it, please don't slip and fall under it" the whole time.I especially wanted to get to school on time because I was on-call in my first class today, and everybody who's been on call this week has flaked out--either not shown up or just not been prepared. I didn't want to look like I was skipping out, too. I was a couple minutes late, but so was the professor, so everything went down okay. I was nervous about the case, since it dealt with a class action by preferred stockholders following a cash-out merger of a company--and despite reading it twice, taking notes, and reviewing it, I still didn't really understand what happened. I realized during the course of the class, that it was just a really small contractual issue--the meaning of "liquidation"--that was at issue in the case, so when I got called on I didn't look like a total idiot. All of that gasping around in the cold ice this morning did leave me a little asthmatic, and I sit on the front row, so I'm not sure that anyone behind me was able to appreciate my success on that case. They probably think I'm *gasp* shy!
I don't know if this is normal, but at night before I go to bed I fantasize about what I would be eating if calories didn't matter. Last night it was a huge chocolate-frosted glazed donut...
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